It's been over 72 hours since I sent the email outline of my latest article to 'Mother & Baby' magazine - my first, proper magazine article (with proper spelling and everything) to a proper magazine.
72 hours and already I'm on the verge of calling the editor to see if it's reached her safely. I've read my course materials that say 'leave at least two weeks before sending a reminder email' at least 16 times in the last 3 hours to stave off the temptation to pick up the phone and call the magazine Head Office and shout "Is it there ?? Do you have it ?? What do you think ?? Oh please God like it !! I've sweated blood over this, you know - Look, look at these fingers !! These are the fingers of a GENIUS, damn you !!"
I find myself sitting rigid at my laptop trying to coax any kind of alternative thought from my coffee-wired brain whilst all the time my eyes are being drawn to the little 'Email Received' box in the top left hand corner.
Christ knows what I'll do if the count actually goes up by one. Probably have a stroke, I shouldn't wonder...
I've already opened and closed it multiple times just in case a new email has arrived and the number hasn't changed..then of course there's the rabid checking of the 'Spam Folder' in case it's been shunted in there by mistake..
Wait two weeks to send a reminder ?!? I'll be lucky if I make it to the end of today before I call 999 and ask the police to investigate.
Truly they also serve who stand and wait
I wonder if Michaelangelo had this level of anticipation whilst he was waiting for the Pope to get back to him about his quote for redecorating the Cistine Chapel...?